你忘了。
我笑了。
放下了。
可以了。
...to say hi to those who missed me. I'm sorry I haven't been blogging - I'm not sure what's gotten into me but I have been in a perpetual state of blankness of late. I don't want to think very much, and what naturally follows is that I don't write very much either.
But here's just a quick update on what's going on in my life right now. We celebrated my birthday yesterday, in our usual quiet way. The mister took a day off work and we set off for a dimsum lunch and then scrambled back home again to lay our hands on the Nintendo Wii he got me. I'm nursing an aching arm now from all the cyber-tennis. ;)
Thoughts on turning a year older...well, usually I'm not one to be afraid of growing older, but this time I resent the reminder that my biological clock is ticking away. It's unsettling. Maybe we will never get there and I should just ignore the ticking of the clock since it's probably irrelevant, but the noise is...infinitely irritating. So for now, I say, somebody kill that alarm clock please.
Other than that annoying bit, life's generally fine, life goes on.
And my favourite line of the day is,
"Flooded, burnt, baked and frozen,
grass can withstand it all."
- as quoted from the documentary Planet Earth
Zachary makes a mess of the living room and their mum asks both boys to pick up the toys before they are allowed a candy treat. Brandon is reluctant because he did not mess up the room, it was Zachary who did.
Their mum: "If you don't help your brother Zachary clean this mess up, he won't get to eat this candy."
Brandon (without missing a beat): "Does that mean I can have both pieces of candy?"
=__=||
...coz' I have been gorging myself silly on mindless indulgences like Internet TV, Facebook games and simply doing nothing. I know it is therapeutic because I am longer afraid of my handphone's ringtone. Yes, long long ago, in a workplace galaxy one month ago, I was so keyed up I literally jumped whenever I heard my handphone ring. I have since changed my ringtone, haha.
So, life is a blissful blank right now. I'll be back when I snap out of this lalala state.
这一年来, 生活过得很紧绷，现在突然慢了下来, 需要时间适应。时间上的分配，金钱上的支配，都需要调整。
还好，因为摆脱了上班族的忙碌，不需要用消费来减压 ，恰恰适合缩了水的荷包。
对物质的欲望减少了，有点在为生活解毒 (detox) 的感觉。
又推掉了另一份不错的全职工作，得到的结论是， 虽然对自己想要的有点模糊， 对自己所不想要的，却是清楚得很。 这也算是向前迈进了一步吧。
选择了放弃朝九晚五的安定，害怕吗？说真的，有一点。这种自由，是要用钱买的：原本能领的年薪，就是这自由的价码。买了这么贵的自由，会害怕 “下错了赌注”，回报不及本钱， 得不偿失。不过，如果因为害怕（怕输心理+对未知的恐惧）而死抓着不放，又怎么可能让自己有机会出走出这已经走了太久的框框呢？
放得下， 这是我的财富，让我有本钱能去开拓不一样的精彩。
来临的一年里，任务就是出去走走，听听别人的故事，体会生活中大大小小的感动。值不值得，日后自然会有分晓。
We took the D70 out for a workout over the weekend. So far so good, our ol' pal seems to be going strong. That's pretty good since I'm on a shoestring budget for the year ahead and don't think I can afford to splurge on a new DSLR.
Photos taken from Conrad Centennial, colours popped with Photoshop.
词曲: 戴佩妮
就用你最喜歡的速度 開往一個地圖沒有的城市
就看你最愛看的午夜電影 別問星期幾
就跳你最愛跳的舞步 隨著從來沒有聽過的頻率
就畫你最喜歡的表情 讓自己高興
就這樣吧 不再模糊 讓別人看清楚你的態度
就這樣吧 揭開束縛 那答案就在不遠處
不一定每件事都要一個解釋
不一定天堂裡住著一位天使
不一定要大哭才能訴說心事
不一定小心翼翼 就不會走失
不一定某件事都有某個方式
不一定他就是你的白馬王子
不一定要無聊才一直看電視
不一定的事太多
就像時間隨時會停止 會停止
We started this project with many official, politically-correct reasons that I really hated. I hated doing an otherwise meaningful project with such deliberate agenda. So I thought I would hate the farce that was to be played out tonight.
Surprise, surprise. Tonight, I was moved. For despite whatever convulated intentions we started out with, what transpired at the event was so simple, it touched me. We made an old man very happy, walking him down memory lane. As I watched him examine each piece of memory (with such tenderness you knew immediately he truly cared), I could see the light in his eyes, just like the lights in your eyes and mine when we flip through old photo albums or yearbooks.
It really didn't matter who he was - man on the street, man on the stage. The way those eyes lighted up - it made all our efforts worthwhile.
我会想念这份感动。
